Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Difficult times

I'm really struggling with things at the moment, it seems everything has come at once.

Ever since I had that gastroscopy my stomach's been worse. Now I have a weird virusy cold. Couldn't eat my tea last night - urgh the smell of it cooking was yukky-, was in bed by 7pm. I feel so tired and down at the moment. I think part of it is a virus, but I think part of it is stress. Next Tuesday I'm going for a scan on my gall bladder, I pray fervently there's nothing wrong with it, because right now I could really do without it!

Both my kiddiwinks are having a hard time at school right now, every morning Squidge doesn't want to go to school and I have to leave her in the classroom crying every day. I've been meeting with the teacher about it, I've even been to the doctors', but she's still unhappy. It breaks my heart. She just tells me the work is too hard, but she is doing absolutely fine.

Chatterbox has been suffering recently too, her friend has been taking things off her and because I rang her mother about it she's taken some pens from Chatterbox and won't give them back and has now fallen out with Chatterbox. Chatterbox is so open and friendly that sometimes she gets taken advantage of. My little treasure. I hate to think of her breaking up with such a long time friend. I spoke to her teacher too, I'm not sure why this has suddenly happened.

My nan is worse. We had a phone call this morning from my auntie that neither of her legs will work now. She can't get out of bed, she can't stand and she can't make it to the commode. We are wondering if it is time she went into the hospice as she needs proper nursing care now, but nan is frightened of hospital environments, so we are not sure how she will take it. Added to that my granddad fell last night at 3 in the morning.

My grandma (my mum's mum) has also fallen recently and can't bend one of her legs, so she is struggling too now.

I know I need to get close to the Rock, my Saviour, and as I said in my previous post He is with me and within me. I just need to stay focused on that.

I would covet your prayers right now not just for me, but for my family.

Thanks xxxx


  1. {~*{~*{Gentle Hugs}*~}*~}

    My dear sweet friend. I am *so sorry* you're going through so many difficult things right now. It's so hard when it seems that everything is going wrong at once. Hang in there, cling to Jesus and be gentle with yourself.

    And know that I will be praying for you.

  2. (((((Hugs))))) and my prayers will be with you and for your family. ~Alana~

  3. I'm sorry you're having such a stressful time just now. You've got so much to deal with it's no wonder you're low in both body and spirit.
    Try to take some time out for yourself and nurture yourself a little.
    I hope things start to improve soon, in the meantime I wish you peace and comfort.
    Hugs, Eve x

  4. AQGL - thank you dear friend! xx

    Alana - thank you so much for your prayers.

    Eve - it's always hard to take time out, but it's important to rest. Thanks.

    Hugs to you all xx

  5. sorry you are so stressed and not feeling well! wish I had a good answer, but I'm afraid I don't. praying for you!

  6. I'm sorry things are so hard for you just now :(. Do be gentle with yourself - rest when you can, and try to spend some time doing comfort things. Not necessarily comfort food - though nothing wrong with a bit of that if you feel up to it - but feel-good books or TV or music anything that will lift your spirits. Things *will* get better. Praying for you.

  7. Cabcree - thank you for your prayers, they really do make a difference!

    Bookworm - I bought myself a book today, always a indulgence for me! :) It's about children workers in the 19th century - not exactly 'feel good' but interesting!

    Thanks and hugs to you both for your kindness and prayers. x

  8. Praying that God's peace will cover you and get you thru this time. You are safe in His arms-rest there and know He has everything under His control.
    (((Hugs))) Joyce

  9. I hope today has been a better day for you.
    Hugs, Eve x

  10. I'm so sorry you're going through such a rough time. I shall keep you and your family in my prayers and if you need to chat you know where I am.

  11. Joyce - thanks Joyce, that's so true.

    Eve - thank you, I'm feeling a little better today. You are so sweet to ask again. x

    Dulce Do - hello dearie! I must send you that book back. Thanks for your prayers and I will pray for your little one.

    I will certainly give you a ring at some point, I've sent an email. xx

    Hugs to you all!

  12. Why does everything seem to fall apart at the same time? I guess it's all part of our sanctification. Sounds like you're getting a big dose! I'll pray for your family.

  13. So many problems. Have courage.
    This blog is very nice. The picture in the header is beautiful.

  14. Dearest friend - if YOU can't manage to pray for yourself right now, do not worry- there are lots of us praying for you [that is what friendship and feloowship is all about]
    Life is obviously really stressful, and you're understandably anxious about family members- as well as not feeling 100% yourself.
    Hang in there - you're in our thoughts- blessings and hugs xx

  15. Alfazema - thanks! So glad to see you here! xx

    Angela - you know I find it so hard to pray for myself with a deep trust that I find when praying for others, I suppose it must be a lack of faith on my behalf, but to know that so many lovely Christian ladies are praying for my family and me really brings me peace.


  16. I hope things are getting better for you and your family. Good luck for your scan tomorrow,
    Eve x

  17. Thanks Eve, I'll hopefully get chance to do a blog post soon. xx

  18. Thinking of you and praying for you my dear friend...